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Thursday, September 15, 2011

Wow time flies

I can't believe it has been so long since I have posted. I have been busy with some thing and lazy with others and the blog has fallen by the wayside. I thought I check in because I am suppose to be journaling all these memories about my family. Mike's parents have come to visit us several times which Olivia loves. We love it too and we were able to go to some awesome garage sales. Mike and I have been meeting lots of new people in Boise and hanging out which has been nice for Olivia to play with other kids. We have also found some fantastic babysitters. One girl is in our ward and she is 13 and she is just in the awkward stage of getting braces and going through puberty but she is the absolute sweetest. I was concerned about finding a sitter because Hazel is so young but this girl babysat for another couple over the summer and they have a set of twin boys that are only a few months older than Hazel so she has had a lot of experience. Plus her mom lives close by.

My working out has been non existent. Not surprised at all. As soon as things picked up at work that was the first thing to go. One day it will happen. Also Mike has a herniated disc so I don't have a workout partner anymore. :( He has been in a lot of pain so that has been hard in a lot of ways. He is at home with the kids all day and he is suppose to take it easy which is really hard for him. That means there is a lot of cleaning stuff that he can't help out with. The doctors have a fairly aggressive plan that I don't really agree with but that is a big story within itself.

I have been reading reading reading. I am trying to research all these things and I feel so overwhelmed so I end up wasting a lot of time on FB to give my brain a break. Then I started my pintrest account and boy is it fun but it surely can eat up a lot of time. Productive time. I have been researching homeschooling. I think I'll save that for another posts. I have also been researching some business ideas and then there are the parenting books. I have read them once but there is no way I can remember stuff from 3 years ago.

And then my rash comes and goes with my TOM and when I get stressed. So I got pretty stressed a few weeks ago and it broke out on my back, it crawled up my shoulder, up my neck and now is on my face. Makes me self conscious but Mike says it isn't noticeable but I don't believe him. The nice thing is I work with a bunch of guys and they probably don't notice. I can't take anything for fear of it crossing into my milk or affecting my milk supply. So I can't wait to stop pumping so I can do a detox.

I am going to end with my pumping woes. I never experience any of these things with Olivia but I know most nursing moms do have these problems. I got Mastitis in June. Wow that really sucked so I have been more aware about plugged ducts. I recently have dropped a pumping session so I now only pump 3 times a day which is so much more convenient than 4. Then I got a plugged duct on the left side and I was able to get it worked out. Then I took a nap on my belly the other day and have been battling this plugged duct on the right side. I thought I cleared it out 3 times before but it kept plugging up so I finally pop the milk blister and hopefully I am okay now. Lesson learned is I can only sleep on my back and popping the blister with a pin wasn't bad at all. And hear is my apology if that was TMI but being a mom of a new baby is a dirty job.

1 comments:

Jenny said...

Cole is 16 months old and I have yet to start exercising again. How pathetic is that? It's just so hard when you spend the majority of your awake/productive/energized day at work. When I come home, I feel horribly guilty if I do anything not with the kids. I feel like I can't leave them to even go on a walk because I've been gone from them all day. And when I truly do have "me" time, it's from 10 pm until whenever I go to bed, so our rec center is closed and it's too dark to go outside alone. It's more of a mental roadblock for me with exercise... but at least you don't work at the health department where all your coworkers are health/exercise nuts who can't understand why you don't run marathons for fun everyday when you obviously have hours of free time. Oh wait, they don't have little kids.

Anyway...I remember with Pearl I got a plugged duct when she was about 9 months old. It took days for me to get it all worked out and hurt like crazy. Then it seemed to come and go until I finally stopped all together. Sometimes you have to give on something to survive and stay sane so if pumping has to go, then so be it.

And can I offer some advice? I love you Sandy. You are amazing! Mike is amazing! You have two beautiful girls. But.... if researching every single thing and feeling like you have to re-read all those parenting books on everything before you decide anything is stressing you out, then stop! Sometimes you just have to jump right in not knowing what you are doing or what the outcome might be to survive and stay sane. There are so many things I get hung up on that I think a good mom should be doing but you know what? It just stresses me out more and makes me feel like a failure. I really think moms have this built in sense of what to do, if we'd just stop long enough to listen. For example, I had to stop stressing about Pearl not learning everything I saw other moms who did co-op preschools or homeschooled did last year because it stressed her and me out. Waiting until she was 4 was the right choice for us in terms of doing more actual school lessons. Now she is gobbling up everything and so excited to learn. I'd only do homeschool as away to break up my day if I stayed at home and to spend time with my kids when they are little.

Ok, so my comment is long enough. Just remember you are amazing! Being a wife/mother and working is super hard. I struggled with depression after about two months back at work (sort of the time when everyone forgets you have a new baby) and it was so hard. It sucked the life out of me until I just had to tell myself to relax and enjoy things. Hang in there! And call when you come to town next and we will go to lunch.